This weight loss journey started on January 1, but I was slow moving. Usually I am amped up, always ready to take on a challenge, but relationship problems were holding me back. My boyfriend and I had been dating for three years off and on, and in August 2010 we moved in together. I knew immediately it wasn't going to work for me. It's crazy because most women would have loved to have a relationship like I had. He was faithful, he was domesticated, he was sexy, he was a chef, he was loving, the sex was great ... but it wasn't enough. It's very hard to explain, but it felt like I was living a lie. I tried for months to make it work, and it doing so I got more and more stressed with my situation. I tried kicking him out every month, but I always gave in and told him not to go, because even though I knew I didn't want to be with him I loved him deeply and felt like kicking him out would hurt him. Plus I didn't want to be alone. But it finally all came to an end. I expressed myself, I put my foot down, and we set a date for him to move out. I made myself stick with my decision. It sounds crazy but our last day together was the best day we had since we moved in together. I think we both felt relieved it was coming to an end. That was exactly a week ago. I still miss him a little, and I will always love him, but I couldn't be more proud of myself. I put me first. I will never settle for anything less that what I know I deserve.
So on the day my boyfriend moved out, exactly one week ago (01.15.11) I weighed in at 293.4 pounds (UHHH!) and today, one week later I weigh 290.8 pounds! So I lost about 2 pounds! Which is awesome. I am completely happy with 2 pounds. Did you know two pounds a week for a year is over 100 pounds? I had a rough week, a rough month actually, and I think I am doing amazing.
So in the spirit of throwing out everything in your life that is not good for you I decided to clean out my fridge! I threw away everything that would interfere with me losing weight and went grocery shopping. I filled my fridge with healthy food that my body will love and deserves to be fed. I couldn't be more excited about my fresh new start!
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| MY FRESH START : BY MORGAN |
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